“Every individual acts and suffers in accordance with his peculiar teleology, which has all the inevitability of fate, so long as he does not understand it.” - Alfred Adler. While reading Alfred Adler, the 20th century Austrian psychotherapist, i learnt why dealing with neglect in early life can end up…

And escape from the `master’ mind. — If material success is not filling you up— you might be enslaved by your `master’ mind. You need to find a way to your `heightened self’. On the summit of my success, i found the unclimbed mountain of my self. …I had this shocking realization at the height of my…

Freedom and the 9 movements to get there. — “Is it possible to wake up some mornings and feel incapable of loving…when you feel nothing…nothing at all.”- a text from a very happy, successful friend this morning. I was there. Caged in a gemstone mind. With a glass full of goal coins and yet desperately thirsty for joy. Unable…

Notes while reading Carl R. Rogers — On Becoming a Person. — Underneath all my research into resolving my self-doubts, fears and paranoia lies one central search…a search for uncovering my real self. This book found me and gave me some answers. So I thought I should share some of what I found. “It seems to me that at the bottom each…

Chapter 12: Shopping for Reasons to Murder A Model — Love, Lust, Greed and Loathing sum up motives of murder. Sapna sniffled, caressing Indu's photographs littered on the living room carpet. Most of them were polaroids of her and Sapna off-stage at some catwalk, giggling and goofing around. Indu was just 23 and slated to be a top contender for…

Chapter 11: Stumbling Upon the Tip of an Iceberg — “The cause is hidden. The effect is visible to all.”― Ovid The twin `I Love Sapna' fan cards with tantalizing braille inscriptions divided the table between a sapped Sapna and wary Police Commissioner Atima. Senn sat on the edge of his chair, straining to understand Vicky speaking in English and…

Chapter 10: Sometimes Sadness Congeals Into Suspicion — “We are always paid for our suspicion by finding what we suspect.”― Henry David Thoreau Vicky cradled a sobbing Sapna in his arms as she stood around Indu’s burning pyre, surrounded by grieving family and friends. Senn, exhausted, watched the priest chant the last rites and pour scented oil into…

Chapter 9: Let's Seduce You at My Pandemonius Party — “The very power of evil is that it is not recognizable to us most of the time. It is not repellent at all. It does not attack, it seduces.”― Anne Perry Senn was Sapna's date at one of her modeling girlfriends' birthday parties. Vicky was out of town, and Sapna…

Chapter 8: Why Is It So Hot In Heaven! — “He who conquers himself is the mightiest warrior.”― Confucius Sweat streamed down Senn's face as he sat in a dimly lit, fanless room, waiting for Jaggi Gurukkal to arrive and start the Kalari martial art masterclass. It was 20 minutes past midnight. The torturous circumstances felt kind of planned as…